Let me live my truth

 I'm not a good writer and I'm gonna list the reasons why:
1. I have no good ideas. I always used cliches, plots I have read before, prompts from those tumblr pages. You know the drill.
2. I don't have the vocabulary to write good things. I probably have the vocab of a mediocre student who just glides through school because she can't be bothered.
3. I can't write poetic shit. Trust me, I've tried and I feel disgusted reading back to my things.
4. I can't write long paragraphs. They end up being just short, sometimes too short for anything. I have a difficult time just trying to reach 500 words. That says a lot.
5. Shit, I can't make something as basic as a fucking draft. 
6. I never tried to better myself. I keep telling myself that I want to write, but I never do. 
7. I have just given up. I want to write but looking back at it, I've never been a good writer. I was just deluded by my own want to be good at something.

This is not a jig to get sympathy from whoever reads this. I don't need it. I have just come to the realization that I suck and I should stop trying hard at something I can't achieve anything from. 
I probably won't stop writing, but this is my truth.