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To be honest, I felt like I half-assed these 4 years of my college life. I wasn’t really motivated in doing good, like getting into the dean’s list or something. I was fine with just passing and getting the hell out of there. I know, those 4 years seemed like a waste. For me, I wasn’t really mentally and emotionally invested in my course. Some subjects were interesting, but most of it was just meh for me. How I survived 4 years of forcing myself trying to memorize all those drugs and their mechanisms of actions baffles me up to this point.

But those 4 years have come to an end, and you know what, the subject I missed the most was not even a subject related to my course. I missed political science the most. Funny, isn’t it? I felt like crying when I handed my exam to my professor. I learned a lot in that subject, I had fun studying that subject, my answers didn’t feel forced and I was able to retain most of it. I was happy learning that subject, even just for 6 months (I think, I’m not sure).

But those 4 years leads up to a 2-day examination. The board exams, but before that we have to go to a review and have mock boards to decide our fate. And honestly, I have no motivation on doing both. I have no motivation to study for the boards, and I have no intention of pursuing a career related to my course. HONESTLY, I HATE IT. I hate how I have to go through this. I hate how I feel like I’m not doing this for myself, but instead I’m doing this for the school because we have to maintain this top one spot. At this point, I don’t care about that. I just want to finish it just to get it over with. This will be the only consolation I have if I finish this with passing grades.

I feel pressured to be honest. And I don’t want to take the exams because of that but people around me have been just pushing me to do it. I feel uncomfortable thinking that I have to take these exams. I feel disgusted with myself every time I think about exams. I know this sounds like I’m running away from responsibility, but that’s the truth. I’m not ready, but people don’t understand that. I know there are no easy courses in college, but maybe if I actually enjoyed my course even for a bit, I wouldn’t be this disgusted with myself.

At present

May. 14th, 2017 11:01 am
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I just finished watching the latest Kanjani con, and I'm about to write my feelings about everything, not just Kanjani but concerning everything related to my current fandom life, because I need to sort this shit out

READ AT YOUR OWN RISK


Let me talk to you about Eightertainment. Just like the title suggests, it was full-on entertainment. It showed what kind of group Kanjani was. The first disc showcased all their latest singles and some con staples (I'm not sure about the staples one tho). It was the representation of them as an idol group, with all the dancing, sparkly outfits and catchy songs (except for the opening I guess? They used Noroshi there, I won't consider it sparkly LOL). Highlight of the first disc: The Light. Yamada unit delivered on that tbh. I just kind of wanted more dancing on that song tho
Here comes disc 2, where I become a mess. They pulled out their other side, the band side of Kanjani. The acoustic session was asdfghjkl. I cannot describe it with words. I'm not familiar with the songs they used, but in the end it was pleasing to listen to. (I need to listen to more of their songs tbh). They also performed more of their unit songs and tbh it's so damn good!! Hadaka (despite all the nakedness) was a good song, Steal your Love with all the Ryokura dancing was on point. Ohkura's dancing was exceptionally good! :) (But I'm biased so LMAO). Damn Black of Night was real, Maru was bringing it! and he served it hot man. (Idk what I'm saying). King of Otoko is my guilty pleasure LOL. AND MY FEELINGS TURNED ASDFGHJKL DURING THE BAND SESSION. I WAS IN TEARS, AND BY TEARS I MEAN LEGIT TEARS. They started with Tokyoholic, a song I'm not familiar with. They had a mini instrument adlib thing (pls I'm not a music person, idk) and damn EARGASM! Maru's bass was on point and Ohkura just had to join in, and shoutout to Yasu jumping up and down during Maru's part and Yokohina being proud parents af and Subaru joining in with a scream/yell. BUT THEN ZOU, ZOU WAS LIT I HAD GOOSEBUMPS. I don't have words to describe it okay? But the drumming was so fast, I can see Ohkura being tired and shit. And I think Yasu was on the brink of crying? And the bass was present and alive? I was a mess okay? I don't understand myself when I was watching it. And then Noroshi. TBH I like this Noroshi more than the intro Noroshi bc they performed it as a band, with instruments rather than walking LMAO.
And that was it, they had the usual encore and stuff. You know, and their credits were great.


That's it for the DVD~


My recent Kanjani boom got me thinking if I still like Arashi. Their latest single for JAL that sounds like Bittersweet didn't get me excited and the fact that I was hesistating on buying their DVD questioned my love for them. I still watch Kizoku Tantei and enjoy the latest single (especially Unknown, like damn those vocals and the stripped down sound), but I just don't have that much motivation on following their shows anymore. And I can't contribute that to RL because tbh, I don't have problems jugglng RL and Fandom life that much. For me, Arashi has lost their appeal visually I guess? Sometimes, I feel like I'm just forcing myself to watch them or comment on whatever they have going on. I can't get excited anymore about their projects and I feel guilty about it. People have been asking me if I will say goodbye to Arashi, and honestly, I've been thinking about that. But still Arashi is a safe place for me, where I have made friends.
Sometimes I think to myself, I wish Arashi wasn't put so high up in a pedestal. I don't know anything about them, all I hear are good things about them, like them being humble and all that but still, if you have that level of popularity, you're bound to get lax about yourself at some point (or maybe that's just me). I know they went through some shit and they know how it feels to be at the bottom, but recently, it feels like they don't put too much effort bc they are Arashi. Anything they do sells. It feels like they've been overexposed, they're everywhere and maybe they started feeling suffocated with their own presence. I feel like they want to lay-low, go down from no.1, find someone to compete with. They're losing the spirit. I feel bad for saying this but that's just how I feel.

(I'm probably gonna get bricked for this part)




I love them bc they have that gap that can swallow me whole and my whole house. LMAO. They act all goofy and shit, but when they hold their instruments, they are a brand new group. And they speak to my jrock self, a part of me I can't throw away. Their songs have something that cheers me up, whatever song it is. Take Love & King as an example. It's an irritating song tbh, but I smile at it when it randomly comes up on my shuffle. I also like the fact that they have their own songs. I like how they found a balance with their idol self and doing the things they love. I love the balance they created within themselves, like how they almost have two personas.


That's all~
It's a mess, but that's me~ 

Food Baby

Apr. 22nd, 2017 07:45 pm
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Title: Food Baby
Author: nin_nin15
Length: oneshot
Pairings: Yama
Rating: pg
Genre: crack, fluff
Summary: Food babies are easy to make
Notes: 1) I can’t do a proper summary. I’m sorry. 2) My words might come off a little stiff. I haven’t written anything in a long time, so I’m hella rusty

Ohno was never proactive in planning dates with Sho. One, he was too lazy to even plan properly. Two, it was hard to go out, especially if you’re a nationally known idol. Third, Sakurai Sho is his lover. It was hard to find a place where he hasn’t been to.
But today, Ohno was set on taking out Sho on their next day off together.
Ohno approached Sho who was currently reading a newspaper, probably for Zero.
“Sho-kun.”
The said man looked up from the newspaper he was reading.
“What is it?” Sho said as he smiled at Ohno.
“Let’s go out this Thursday, my treat.”
As much as Thursday sounds weird for a date, it was their first day off together and Ohno was not going to allow that day to pass with them just lazing around in their apartment.
“But I have plans, Ohno-san.”
“Please?” Ohno pleaded with puppy dog eyes.
It wasn’t very Ohno-like to plead, but he was not going to back down to Sho’s overly abused schedule book. He even glared at it.
“Sho-kun, it’s our first day off together after months, I think it’s fair that we spend it together.”
Sho looks at his schedule book and back again to the pleading Ohno. He picks up the schedule book and opens it to Thursday. Drinking with college friends, buying that new book he wanted, buying new clothes he obviously did not need and more mundane stuff, but in general, nothing of great importance.
“Okay, Satoshi-kun, we’ll go out this Thursday.”
Ohno wanted to dance, jump up and hug Sho, maybe kiss him too, but then again, it was very unlike himself, so he settled for a squeeze on Sho’s (sloping) shoulder.

BREAKFAST
Thursday rolls in fast and Ohno was a mess. He woke up at six to make breakfast for Sho even if he wanted to sleep in and cuddle with him more.
He turned on the lights to their barely used kitchen. He quietly prepares the things he needed. He wasn’t the best cook out there, but Sho would probably eat anything he made.
Ohno whips up a simple batch of pancakes. He follows the recipe according to a video he saw on youtube. It was a struggle, with the mixing and timing, but they came out better than expected. Coffee was the easier part of the breakfast. Ohno breathed a sigh of relief as soon as he finished plating everything.
“Good morning, Sho-kun.”
Sho shot up from the bed upon smelling the aroma of coffee and the sweet scent of syrup and pancakes.
“So, the date starts now?” Sho smirks, just a little bit.
“I told you, I’ll treat you for the whole day.” Ohno said with a smile
It was the perfect start for the day ahead. First, pancakes. Second, Ohno made breakfast. There’s nothing more Sho could ask for.

LUNCH
The pair went out, donned in their best disguises ever (not). Sho was wearing a mask, sunglasses and a hat to make it look a bit fancy. Meanwhile, Ohno settled with a simple black cap.
Knowing Ohno, there was little planning made for today. The most planned part he had was the breakfast.
And this is why they match so well. Sho had prepared a detailed list of good places to eat at (and places he had never been to). Sho wanted Ohno to pick a place.
After much discussion and questions like: “What do you want to eat, Sho-kun?” And stupid replies like: “You. Can I have you for lunch?”, they have decided to eat sushi from those places with conveyor belts.
“Are you sure about this?” Don’t you want to go somewhere fancier?” Ohno asked as they waited for their orders.
“We always eat fancy, sometimes I want to eat food like this and plus I can eat more food at prices like this!” Sho smiled for the nth time that day.
Sho smiled even wider when their first order came. Ohno let out a small chuckle.
After 10 plates between them and amidst all the random banter and weird conversations, Sho and Ohno had their fill.
“Well then, where do we go next?” Ohno asks his date.
Sho pulls out the list and starts talking about the pros and cons of each place.

TEA TIME
It was a known fact that Ohno loves sweet things, and somehow Sho got dragged into their sweets club and finally all of Arashi was a full on sweets club. It was going to be weird if they did not eat any pastries or cakes. Ohno seems to be knowledgeable about good spots.
“I’ll order for you.” Ohno said as he stood up from their table.
A few minutes later, Ohno comes with a slice of cheesecake and an iced café latte.
“Oh you know me so well.” Sho said, teasing Ohno a bit.
“The whole Japan knows you so well, Sho-kun.”
That comment earns a hearty laugh from Sho. If he laughed any louder, they would be eating their cakes somewhere else.
They eat their cakes peacefully. Ohno watches Sho as takes a bite of his cheesecake happily. Sho seems to notice this, so he takes another forkful and brings it up to Ohno’s lips.
“You want some?”
Ohno nods, but then Sho did the opposite. He moves the fork away and proceeds to eat it.
“Then take it.”
Ohno was not the competitive type but this was cake, and probably Sho’s lips too. It was a challenge he needed to take.
Ohno grabbed the nearest menu and covered their faces. Sho dropped his fork in surprise as Ohno claimed his lips.

DINNER
They decided on delivery pizza. At the end of the day, being at home was where they feel most comfortable. It was a place where no one can see them and they could be themselves.
Sho put on a movie he wanted to watch so bad, and Ohno made popcorn as they waited for their pizza to come. As soon as their pizza arrived, the pair settled on the couch and started the movie. Halfway through the movie, they have finished the pizza and popcorn. Around three-fourths into the movie, Ohno was snoring.
Sho finished the movie alone, cleaned the mess they made on their coffee table. He made as little noise as possible, not wanting to wake up the adorable Ohno sleeping on their couch, cuddling a throw pillow.
But all good things come to an end. Ohno’s slumber was interrupted by Sho’s horrified screams. Ohno ran quickly into the bathroom.
“WHAT HAPPENED?!”
“Satoshi-kun, I have a food baby.” Sho said, his voice quivering a bit.
“I guess I’m a father now.” Ohno laughed.
“This is not the time to laugh Satoshi-kun, this is serious!” Sho pouted.
Ohno walked into the shower, not caring if his clothes got wet.
“Well then, there are a lot of things we can do to get rid of it.” Ohno whispered, his voice very low, sending shivers down Sho’s spine.

Food Baby

Apr. 22nd, 2017 07:44 pm
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Title: Food Baby
Author: nin_nin15          
Length: oneshot
Pairings: Yama
Rating: pg
Genre: crack, fluff
Summary: Food babies are easy to make
Notes: 1) I can’t do a proper summary. I’m sorry. 2) My words might come off a little stiff. I haven’t written anything in a long time, so I’m hella rusty


Ohno was never proactive in planning dates with Sho. One, he was too lazy to even plan properly. Two, it was hard to go out, especially if you’re a nationally known idol. Third, Sakurai Sho is his lover. It was hard to find a place where he hasn’t been to.
But today, Ohno was set on taking out Sho on their next day off together.
Ohno approached Sho who was currently reading a newspaper, probably for Zero.
                “Sho-kun.”
The said man looked up from the newspaper he was reading.
                “What is it?” Sho said as he smiled at Ohno.
                “Let’s go out this Thursday, my treat.”
As much as Thursday sounds weird for a date, it was their first day off together and Ohno was not going to allow that day to pass with them just lazing around in their apartment.
                “But I have plans, Ohno-san.”
                “Please?” Ohno pleaded with puppy dog eyes.
It wasn’t very Ohno-like to plead, but he was not going to back down to Sho’s overly abused schedule book. He even glared at it.
                “Sho-kun, it’s our first day off together after months, I think it’s fair that we spend it together.”
Sho looks at his schedule book and back again to the pleading Ohno. He picks up the schedule book and opens it to Thursday. Drinking with college friends, buying that new book he wanted, buying new clothes he obviously did not need and more mundane stuff, but in general, nothing of great importance.
                “Okay, Satoshi-kun, we’ll go out this Thursday.”
Ohno wanted to dance, jump up and hug Sho, maybe kiss him too, but then again, it was very unlike himself, so he settled for a squeeze on Sho’s (sloping) shoulder.
BREAKFAST
Thursday rolls in fast and Ohno was a mess. He woke up at six to make breakfast for Sho even if he wanted to sleep in and cuddle with him more.
He turned on the lights to their barely used kitchen. He quietly prepares the things he needed. He wasn’t the best cook out there, but Sho would probably eat anything he made.
Ohno whips up a simple batch of pancakes. He follows the recipe according to a video he saw on youtube. It was a struggle, with the mixing and timing, but they came out better than expected. Coffee was the easier part of the breakfast. Ohno breathed a sigh of relief as soon as he finished plating everything.
                “Good morning, Sho-kun.”
Sho shot up from the bed upon smelling the aroma of coffee and the sweet scent of syrup and pancakes.
                “So, the date starts now?” Sho smirks, just a little bit.
                “I told you, I’ll treat you for the whole day.” Ohno said with a smile
It was the perfect start for the day ahead. First, pancakes. Second, Ohno made breakfast. There’s nothing more Sho could ask for.
LUNCH
The pair went out, donned in their best disguises ever (not). Sho was wearing a mask, sunglasses and a hat to make it look a bit fancy. Meanwhile, Ohno settled with a simple black cap.
Knowing Ohno, there was little planning made for today. The most planned part he had was the breakfast.
And this is why they match so well. Sho had prepared a detailed list of good places to eat at (and places he had never been to). Sho wanted Ohno to pick a place.
After much discussion and questions like: “What do you want to eat, Sho-kun?” And stupid replies like: “You. Can I have you for lunch?”, they have decided to eat sushi from those places with conveyor belts.
                “Are you sure about this?” Don’t you want to go somewhere fancier?” Ohno asked as they waited for their orders.
                “We always eat fancy, sometimes I want to eat food like this and plus I can eat more food at prices like this!” Sho smiled for the nth time that day.
Sho smiled even wider when their first order came. Ohno let out a small chuckle.
After 10 plates between them and amidst all the random banter and weird conversations, Sho and Ohno had their fill.
                “Well then, where do we go next?” Ohno asks his date.
Sho pulls out the list and starts talking about the pros and cons of each place.
TEA TIME
It was a known fact that Ohno loves sweet things, and somehow Sho got dragged into their sweets club and finally all of Arashi was a full on sweets club. It was going to be weird if they did not eat any pastries or cakes. Ohno seems to be knowledgeable about good spots.
                “I’ll order for you.” Ohno said as he stood up from their table.
A few minutes later, Ohno comes with a slice of cheesecake and an iced café latte.
                “Oh you know me so well.” Sho said, teasing Ohno a bit.
                “The whole Japan knows you so well, Sho-kun.”
That comment earns a hearty laugh from Sho. If he laughed any louder, they would be eating their cakes somewhere else.
They eat their cakes peacefully. Ohno watches Sho as takes a bite of his cheesecake happily. Sho seems to notice this, so he takes another forkful and brings it up to Ohno’s lips.
                “You want some?”
Ohno nods, but then Sho did the opposite. He moves the fork away and proceeds to eat it.
                “Then take it.”
Ohno was not the competitive type but this was cake, and probably Sho’s lips too. It was a challenge he needed to take.
Ohno grabbed the nearest menu and covered their faces. Sho dropped his fork in surprise as Ohno claimed his lips.
DINNER
They decided on delivery pizza. At the end of the day, being at home was where they feel most comfortable. It was a place where no one can see them and they could be themselves.
Sho put on a movie he wanted to watch so bad, and Ohno made popcorn as they waited for their pizza to come. As soon as their pizza arrived, the pair settled on the couch and started the movie. Halfway through the movie, they have finished the pizza and popcorn. Around three-fourths into the movie, Ohno was snoring.
Sho finished the movie alone, cleaned the mess they made on their coffee table. He made as little noise as possible, not wanting to wake up the adorable Ohno sleeping on their couch, cuddling a throw pillow.
But all good things come to an end. Ohno’s slumber was interrupted by Sho’s horrified screams. Ohno ran quickly into the bathroom.
                “WHAT HAPPENED?!”
                “Satoshi-kun, I have a food baby.” Sho said, his voice quivering a bit.
                “I guess I’m a father now.” Ohno laughed.
                “This is not the time to laugh Satoshi-kun, this is serious!” Sho pouted.
Ohno walked into the shower, not caring if his clothes got wet.
                “Well then, there are a lot of things we can do to get rid of it.” Ohno whispered, his voice very low, sending shivers down Sho’s spine.

Blocked

Mar. 12th, 2017 09:23 pm
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Title: Blocked
Author: nin_nin15          
Length: drabble
Pairings: Sakumiya
Rating: pg
Genre: crack
Summary: When blocked, everyone needs release
Notes: I’m in a block so here. I JUST NEEDED TO WRITE SOMETHING


Sho grumbles in frustration as he types away on his laptop.
                “I need to write. I Need To Write. I NEED TO WRITE.”
Sho sighs once more, getting the attention of Nino.
                “Sho-chan, maybe today’s not your day.” Nino shouts from across the room.
                “But Nino! I have to write something!” Sho whines.
                “Then stop whining and start writing! I can’t finish this level with you sighing in the background every five seconds!”
Nino returns back to his game, leaving Sho alone to wallow in his inability to write.
It was quiet for exactly five minutes, minus the sounds of the Sho typing on his keyboard and the fanfare music playing from Nino’s game.
Nino was about to move on to the next level, when he heard another frustrated sigh from Sho.
                “Sho-chan, just what in the world are you writing?!” Nino’s voice laced with frustration.
                “Fanfiction.”
Nino didn’t know if he was supposed to laugh at Sho or just question his current mental state.
                “But why?”
                “Fans seem to like it.”
Nino squinted his eyes.
                “So it’s fanservice?”
Sho spun his chair around to face Nino. He wore this smirk on his face, like he had some brilliant idea in his mind.
                “Kind of.”
Nino smirks back at Sho. It looks like they have the same thing in mind. He walks towards Sho and straddles him.
                “How about we give them something to write about.” Nino whispers into Sho’s ears, his low voice sending shivers through Sho’s body.
Sho closes his laptop and carries Nino towards their bed. He drops him on the bed, and closes the distance between them, kissing Nino eagerly.
                “I like that idea.”

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I want to run away, but I feel lost.
I'm scared that no one will come a chase after me, nobody would care.
I'm scared of being forgotten
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Sometimes I wish I could forget.
Forget that we were so close, like two peas in a pod;
Forget all the fun times we had together;
Forget all the shit we went through;
Forget that time that I opened up to you;
Forget that I mattered to you once.

I want to forget so that walking away from you wouldn't be so painful
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Since thinga have been crazy lately in lj, i have decided to back up all of my things in dreamwidth. I go by the same username.

That's all. :)
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Title: I Still Kind of Love You, Who Knows?
Author: nin_nin15          
Length: drabble
Pairings: Sakumiya
Rating: PG
Genre: fluff
Summary: Where Nino pays a visit to an old flame


Sho felt his phone vibrate. A text message. Who would text him in the middle of the night, nobody knows.
               Are you free?
Sure, he’s free in the middle of the night but did he really want to go out when he’s perfectly settled on his bed, ready to go to sleep? Probably not. But it’s him, his old flame, his first love and probably his last too.
He was about to stand up and get ready when his phone vibrated once again.
                I’m outside.
Sho shot up from his bed. Was he drunk? Will he let him in? Wouldn’t it be awkward? They broke up recently, and by recently, Sho meant five days ago, and he isn’t sure if he’s ready to face him yet, which was stupid because they meet each other every day.
He opened the door and found Nino just standing there, holding a can of coffee.
                “Are you drunk?”
Nino smirked, not giving Sho a direct answer.
                “Who knows?”
He let himself in, leaving Sho in his entryway dumbstruck and flabbergasted. He stands there for a few more minutes before getting himself together, catching up to Nino who was already chilling on his couch, drinking his coffee.
                “What are you doing?”
                “Visiting you.”
                “For what?”
                “Do I really need a reason?”
Sho knew Nino wouldn’t give him a straight answer, not when he knows that he’s still kind of bitter about their break up.
                “Can I stay over?”
This caught Sho off guard.
                “What happened to your house?”
                “The heater’s broken.”
                “Yeah, right.”
He knew Nino was lying but still he found himself making his way to the cabinet where he kept the extra pillows and blankets.
                “Oh yeah, you still have some of your games here, you can play but please tone it down.”
                “You know me so well~”
                “Those two years weren’t for nothing.”
Sho set down the pillows and a comforter for Nino.
                “Here, now let me go to bed.”
Sho was waiting for a retort or a snarky comment from Nino, but there was nothing. He was about to go back to his room when he felt Nino tug on his sleeve.
                “I lied about the heater.”
                “I know.” Sho said with a gentle smile.
                “I miss you.”
As soon as those words left Nino’s lips, he was out of sight, hiding under the thick comforter. Sho was left there puzzled, staring at the lump on the couch, his jaw hanging open.
                “Nino, we need to talk.”
Sho was trying to force open Nino’s blanket fort.
                “Good night Sho, you’re early tomorrow, right?” Nino said, panic evident in his voice.
                “I’m not leaving unless you talk.”
                “I hope you’re prepared to look like a zombie tomorrow.”
                “I can sleep on the floor.”
                “Just forget about it.”
                “I can’t and I won’t.”
Nino finally emerges from his blanket fort. He was red, maybe from the warmth of the blanket fort or from embarrassment, who knows?
Sho stared at the red-faced Nino who was avoiding his gaze. In this moment, Sho realized he was stupid for letting him go.
                “Sho, can you stop looking at me like that?”
                “Like what?”
                “Like a creep.”
                “But you like it.”
Nino’s cheeks get redder. Sho inched closer to Nino’s face. Nino could feel his cheeks get warmer as he closed his eyes. A flick on the nose, it was gentle, playful and full of love, but something Nino didn’t expect.
                “Don’t expect.” Sho said as Nino looked at him with pleading eyes.
Sho stood up from his spot, smiling. Nino buried his face on the pillow.
                “I hate you, Sho-chan!”
Sho let out a loud laugh, muffled by the walls of his room.
Sho breathed out a sigh of relief as he plopped down on his bed. He was still in love with Nino and now he’s questioning why in the world he broke up with such a lovable human being. He didn’t want to rush into anything again, but he’s sure both of them still have feelings for each other.
He let himself get lost in the piles of pillows where Nino used to lie down whenever he was staying over. He hasn’t washed the sheets yet so Nino’s scent still lingers. It was faint but it was enough to lull Sho to sleep.
Nino couldn’t sleep. He had butterflies in his stomach wanting to escape, but they couldn’t. The living room was lonely, he missed Sho’s soft bed. He missed being in Sho’s arm as he sleeps. It was true, he missed Sho.
He found himself walking towards Sho’s bedroom. He opened the door and saw Sho sleeping peacefully beside a mass of pillows.
He removed each pillow slowly and carefully, not wanting to wake the man up. As soon as he’s done, he slipped in carefully, enjoying Sho’s warmth.
Sho woke up to the sight of Nino curled up against his body, slightly shivering due to the lack of thick blankets. He pulled the man into an embrace, waking him up in the process.
                “Good morning, I guess it got cold last night?” Sho asked.
Nino buried his face on Sho’s chest.
                “Let me stay like this.” Nino said, his voice muffled by Sho’s shirt.
Sho plants a kiss on his hair.
                “We have to get breakfast.”
                "Nope.”
                “Unless you have food on you, we could stay like this.”
Nino looks up and kisses Sho’s jawline.
                “You can have me for breakfast.”
Sho captures Nino’s lips with a kiss.       
                “I guess I can work with that.”
They lock lips once again, Nino smiling into the kiss.
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Title: Their family
Author: nin_nin15         
Length: drabble
Rating: PG-13
Genre: crack
Summary: Who knew being early would make Nino witness the creation of a family?
Notes: This is more like a ramble than a fic, but still I had to get it out there?


Their meeting time was 9:30. Nino arrived at around 8:00, why was he early? He isn’t sure himself. When he got to the dressing room, the lights were already on. Unbeknownst to Nino, these lights were warning signs, an omen to an impending happy but honestly quite surprising ending.
Sakurai Sho had the least scandals amongst Arashi. If not the least, he has a really small number of scandals. Everyone in Arashi knew he had his fair share of one night stands and gay bars, but they kind of just died down these past few years. For Nino, there are two possible reasons for the scandal less Sakurai Sho: either he hides it really well or he has found someone. Nino like to believe the latter.
8:03. Nino was still standing in front of their door, carefully listening to the muffled sounds. Around 8:05, Nino found out that there were actual people in their dressing room. 8:08, he confirmed both were men. Nino stands there for a good three minutes before grabbing the doorknob, slowly turning as to not disturb the occupants. Who knows? They could be planning world domination and Nino does not want any of that. He peeked through the small crack he created when he opened the door.
To say he was surprised was an understatement. To sum up his emotions, Nino was literally asdfghjkl. It was a mixture of surprise, shock, horror, fear, amusement and a pinch of happiness to top it all off.
He peeked again, making sure his eyes didn’t deceive him, but it’s the same thing. It was the same damn thing and it made Nino cringe a little bit. Like yeah sure, he’s down or whatever but damn that was unexpected.
It’s not part of Nino’s daily routine to spy on his fellow bandmates but seeing your leader get it on with one of your closest friends is not a sight to pass up.  It could become good blackmail material but he decides otherwise, who knows where the pictures will end up?
Nino closes the door before it becomes way too graphic.
9:15. Nino was spotted by none other than Jun.
                “What are you doing here?”
                “Waiting for mom and dad to finish up.
                “Mom and Dad?
                “Yup. Who knew, right?”
9:20. Now both Jun and Nino were waiting when Aiba called out to them.
                “What’s up?”
                “Why not ask Sho-chan, he’s got something up.”
                “Nino, you’re not helping.”
                “What do you want me to say, J?”
                “What are you two talking about?”
                “Aiba-san ought to know, he’s part of the family.”
                “Aibasshi, we can officially call them Mom and Dad.”
9:30. The door opens and the first thing Nino asks was:
                “Ohno-san, how was it?”
Nino’s low-key teasing question sent shivers down the pair’s spines. It made Ohno and Sho turn into a shade of red nobody has seen before.
                “You were there?”
                “Since the beginning.”
Nino’s smile had a playful feel to it, could be mistaken as teasing, but honestly, it was happiness. Meanwhile, Aiba congratulated the pair and Jun gave his blessings.
                “Okay!! Let’s have a family dinner after!” Aiba declared enthusiastically.
Sho was the first one to laugh, followed by Aiba and then Ohno. Jun chuckled and Nino smiled at the scene.
Yup, this is their family.
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Idk why but i want to beta stuff? Hahah

Stars

Nov. 27th, 2016 07:57 pm
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Title: Stars
Author: nin_nin15          
Length: drabble
Pairings: Yama
Rating: g
Genre: fluff
Summary: Sho wanted to run back home


Sho felt like running. And so he did. He didn’t know to where, he did not know why. He just wanted to.
He passed by cars, people walking home, drunk salarymen wobbling to the next bar, he wasn’t sure how many. Everything seems like a blur to him at the moment.
He finally stopped when he reached the center of the city. He didn’t care if people were pointing at him, giving him weird looks, secretly taking pictures, the complete package. He just looked around, the neon lights flashing, sounds blaring from everywhere. Even with all the people, the hustle and bustle of the city, Sho felt empty, he felt lost even if he knew the city inside and out.
                “Where are the stars when you need one?” He muttered under his breath.
He continued walking, his feet taking him somewhere that feels like home. He reached the outskirts of the city, it was somewhat quiet and calmed Sho down a bit. He stopped at an apartment complex, a place he could call home.
He climbed up the stairs, taking his precious time, letting the feeling sink in. He could feel a tingling feeling in the pit of his stomach, some sort of excitement he could not explain. it was something he could not get accustomed to, even if it happens every time.
Apartment 2625. He stopped at the doorstep, slowly bringing his finger to the doorbell. The sound of the doorbell resonated in his ear, and his excitement wants to come out.
                “Tadaima.” Sho said with a gentle smile.
                “Okaeri, Sho-kun.”
He was greeted with the same gentle smile. It was not blinding, but it has a certain gleam to it.
His Satoshi shined like a star.
                “You’re the only star I need.”
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This is going to be incoherent AF, like I'm too stressed to even care about grammar and all that shit like that. LIKE PLEASE.

I don't know where to start at this point. Everything is happening all at once, and I don't think I can handle it anymore. Someone send help. I want to take a break, like don't think about anything, don't work about anything, just lie down and listen to music, I guess. I've reached my breaking point. I'm so close to crying about all the things, I don't know what to do anymore. I need a break, I need to get away from everything, have no responsibilty.

I don't think I can handle anything anymore. I've lost count of all the things I need to do, I don't know where to start, and I don't know when it will end or will this even end. Will I be stuck accepting all the shit people ask me to do even when I know I can't handle shit anymore? When will I be able to say NO I CAN'T ANYMORE.

I'm too tired. So sick with this shit

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Title: A Not-So Drunken Fairytale
Author: nin_nin15          
Length: One-shot
Pairings: Junba
Rating: PG-13
Genre: fluff, crack
Summary: Aiba Masaki was a mess, a happy drunk mess.
Notes: I tried something new today! Warning! This is not edited. I tried writing something following my stream of consciousness this time and this is the product. I hope you enjoy.


They were out drinking, the three of them, Jun, Nino and Aiba. They were genuinely having a good time, not until a storm named Nino decided to fuck up Jun’s life in more ways than one.
Aiba was known to have a fairly good alcohol tolerance. He could stand long bouts of drinking, but there were certain drinks that would erase his fairly good alcohol tolerance and Nino knew all of them. For example, a hint of vodka would make the man drop dead drunk after just a few shots.
Nino decided that today would be the day to give Jun a headache so he changed their usual sake with vodka halfway through their drinking session.
                “This sake tastes weird~” Aiba happily commented.
Jun noticed the smirk on Nino’s face as AIba downs half the bottle of the sake. Jun decides to take a sip of the ‘weird sake’. As soon as the clear liquid hit his tongue, he knew shit was about to go down. He cast one icy glare towards Nino before turning to Aiba.
                “Aiba-san! Don’t-“
It was too late for our hero Jun, Aiba was almost down chugging the bottle, as per Nino’s chanting of ‘chug’ in the background.
                “Nino!!”
                “Wh~at?”
He had that sly tone in his voice that Jun hated so much. Jun wanted to punch the smirk off of his face.
                “You’ll pay for this.”
It was barely a whisper, but the emotions were clear.
It was not a known fact that the only person who could control a drunk Aiba was Jun. If Aiba reached his maximum level of drunkenness, all of the other members would leave it to their youngest to care for their youngest at heart.
Nino stood up ever so casually with such grace it would make the ballerina next door hide in shame. He left a few words before closing the door behind the pair.
                “I bid you farewell and goodluck.”
If Jun wasn’t pissed at Nino, he would’ve surely laughed.
               “Aiba-san~ It’s getting late, we have to go home.”
Jun propped up the flaccid Aiba only for him to fall again.
                “Nee, Jun-chan, carry me like a princess?”
Jun could only sigh as he picked up the heavily inebriated Aiba. Aiba giggled happily as he hooked his arms around Jun’s neck.
They left their private room in the most awkward manner ever with Jun barely seeing where he’s going, fumbling about, almost falling and passing by a shit ton of people while Aiba was obnoxiously singing Arashi songs in his ear.
Jun looked at his watch, 12:11, it was still too early for a night out but too late for a drunk Aiba.
                “Jun-chan, if the clock strikes twelve, will you leave?”
                “It’s past twelve, did you see me leave?”
Aiba snuggled into Jun’s neck.
They waited outside the bar with Jun still carrying Aiba, princess-style. While waiting for their manager, Jun was praying hard that no one would see them in such a state.
After fifteen intense minutes, their manager finally arrived. Jun could finally breathe.
                “To where?”
                “My place.”
                “We’re going to your place?~”
                “Aiba-san, not now.”
                “Call me Macchan!”
                “Macchan, not now.”
Aiba’s giggle echoed in the car.
It was a peaceful trip. Jun and Aiba were able to sleep, with Aiba casually hugging (suffocating) Jun. It was such a funny (cute/blackmail worthy) scene, that their manager (Nino) had to take a photo of it.
                “We’re here.”
Jun opened his eyes, adjusting to the sudden change in brightness. He shook Aiba gently.
                “Macchan, we’re here.”
Aiba opened his eyes slowly, his lashes brushing gently against Jun’s skin. It left tingles on Jun’s skin.
They got off the car, Aiba happily perched on Jun’s back as per his request.
Jun fumbled around for his keys and Aiba breathing on his ear was not helping at all. The pair stumbled into Jun’s entryway, with Jun catching Aiba from serious injury.
                “Thanks, Junnosuke.”
Aside from the fact that Aiba used Junnosuke, his low voice sent shivers down Jun’s spine.
Aiba broke free from Jun’s hold and skipped towards Jun’s living room.
                “Jun-chan! Come here!”
Aiba was jumping all over the place, from chair to chair, almost knocking over one of Jun’s bonsais.
                “Macchan, it’s time to sleep.”
                “Aww~”
It pained Jun to see a downtrodden Aiba, but he was not going to risk it.
Jun held Aiba’s hand and led him to his bedroom.
                “Here’s some clothes, and here’s your bed.”
                “Alone?”
                “I’ll be sleeping on the couch.”
Tears pooled in Aiba’s eyes. He stared at Jun longingly, hoping his puppy eyes would work.
                “That’s not gonna work.”
                “Okay.”
Aiba grabbed his clothes with a sad expression.
                “I guess our fairytale ended.”
It hit Jun where it hurts.
                “Macchan, just tonight okay?”
                “Really?!”
Jun knew it, Aiba’s smile was worth it.
Aiba was finally calm, still drunk but calm.
They got changed in peace, no drunken tantrums from Aiba, no crying, no nothing. It was peaceful.
Aiba was already waiting for Jun, patting he empty side of the bed.
                “Hai, hai.”
As soon as Jun got in the bed, Aiba grabbed him and trapped him in an embrace.
                “You won’t be gone tomorrow morning?”
                “I’ll stay.”
Jun was about to close his eyes when he heard Aiba say something unexpected.
                “My goodnight kiss?”
Jun gently kisses Aiba’s lips.
                “I’m expecting my good morning kiss tomorrow.”
                “I’ll give it to you, not just tomorrow, but until the end of time!”
Jun laughs, slightly hoping Aiba was saying the truth and the promise was not just a drunken ramble.
The next day rolled in, hangover striking them both.
                “Good morning.” Aiba said despite of his hangover.
Jun faced a smiling Aiba. There goes Jun’s hangover.
                “Good mo-“
A kiss. A good morning kiss.
               “I didn’t forget.”


The picture became everyone’s home screen image for a good week, but due to Jun’s threatening looks (which was reciprocated with Aiba’s apologetic smile), it was changed back to the default home screen, but Nino will always be lurking, waiting for the perfect chance to strike again.

Three days

Oct. 31st, 2016 11:55 pm
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Title: Three days
Author: nin_nin15
Length: one-shot
Pairings: Yama
Rating: g
Genre: Fluff
Summary: It went from three to one.
Notes: I’m sorry if it’s sooo cliched.


Sho was on one of his trips and Ohno felt lonelier than ever. It was a three day trip and it’s for a job, but lately, they haven’t found time for each other. Sure, they lived together in one roof, but still the times they were together in their house was not that much. They have been immensely busy, with Sho and his shooting for his new special drama and Ohno just finishing his shooting for the movie, add it with the rehearsals for the upcoming concert and their usual variety shows, all Ohno wants to do is cuddle with Sho and forget the world. But even cuddling was not possible, not now because Sho was in one of his trips for Shiyagare.

“It’s just a three day trip, Satoshi, you can do this.” he said under his breath.
                                                                                                                                                                                                             

Ohno never noticed how big their apartment was until he was alone in it. It was his day off, but he didn’t feel like fishing. Honestly, he didn’t feel like doing anything. He stood up from the couch and dragged himself to the kitchen. He opened the fridge and saw that there was nothing in there except for beer.

“I guess it’s time to go shopping.”

He changed into some decent clothes and put on a mask and a cap.
                                                                                                                                                                                                               

He walked through the aisles of the supermarket with his empty basket. He couldn’t really think of anything to make, even with all the recipes he’s been talking about in his radio show. He finds it useless when Sho isn’t there to eat with him.

He was about to leave the supermarket when he felt his phone vibrate. He took it out, hoping it’s Sho, but to his dismay, it was not. He picked it up anyways.

“Ohno-san, want to eat cake?”

“Sure, I’ll go to our usual place.”
                                                                                                                                                                                                             
Aiba waved at the approaching Ohno.

“Ohno-san! Here!”

Ohno walked a bit faster, smiling a bit as he reached their table.

“Here, I got your favorite chocolate cake!” Aiba said, his smile even wider than before.

“Thanks.”

Ohno took a seat and bites into the cake.

“Are you okay?”

“What do you mean?”

“Nothing.”

“Don’t say that Aiba-chan.”

AIba didn’t say anything, he just smiles at Ohno. It was one of his more devious smiles.It kind of scared him but at the same time made him more curious at Aiba’s motives for calling him.

“I guess you’re really loved, ne?”

Ohno looks at Aiba, confusion written all over his face.

“Aiba-chan, you’re not making any sense.”

“Sho-chan asked me to do this.”

“Do what?”

“Take you out, distract you so you won’t be lonely.”

Ohno was about to cry when he heard that.

“Don’t cry leader, Sho-chan will get mad at me.”

Ohno smiled, a bit wider and brighter this time.

“I won’t.”

“How about more cake?”

“Sure.”

The pair eats more cake, all different types of cake. They were sure they gained at least 5 pounds just from eating cake.

 ________________________________________________________________________________________________________
“Tadaima~”

There was no reply. It dawned to him again that he was alone for two more days. He can’t deny that this day was fun. Having Masaki by his side today made him forget his loneliness, even just for a bit.

“I guess it’s time to go to bed.”

He enters the shower, letting the warm water embrace his body. He didn’t stay for too long, he wasn’t really good with baths anyways.

As he was about to grab his pajamas, he saw Sho’s used shirt lying on the floor. He picks it up and takes a good whiff of it. It still had Sho’s scent on it, and he was so tempted to wear it. And so he did, nobody’s going to see him anyways. And what’s wrong with wearing his lover’s shirt? Isn’t that what couples do?

As one would expect, their bedroom is still empty, not exactly empty, he was there, but the atmosphere feels kind of gray, if Ohno was to describe it in his own terms. Everything was gray and dull. Sho’s voice was not there to greet him. Sho was not there to hold him. Sho was not there.

He walks to their bed. It was cold, just like Ohno predicted. He curled up into the blankets to make himself somewhat warm, but it didn’t help. Sho’s warmth was exponentially warmer than all of the blankets combined. He rolled towards Sho’s side of the bed. It smelled like him and it made Ohno stayed on that spot until he fell asleep.
 ____________________________________________________________________________________________________

Ohno’s phone rings. He glances at the clock beside their bed, 5:30 AM, too early for anything. He didn’t even bother to look at the caller ID, he just swiped right and answered the call.

“Moshi moshi~” His bedroomy voice echoed.

“Ohayou.”

Ohno jumped up from the bed upon realizing who was calling him so early in the morning.

“Are you coming home today?”

He sounded a bit too clingy, but who cares, they were the only ones in the conversation.

“A bit clingy are we? Did you miss me, Satoshi-kun?”

“Just a bit.”

He could hear Sho’s laugh, coming from the phone and from somewhere else. Ohno moves out of the bed. He carries the clock on their bedside, just in case.

As soon as he left the room, a pair of arms grabs his waist. Ohno lets out a small noise.

“I missed you a lot though.”

It made Ohno’s heart skip a beat. It was calming to hear Sho’s voice again.

“Okaeri, Sho-kun.”

“Tadaima.”

Sho switched the lights on. Ohno was a sight to behold. He had his usual messy bed hair, but what makes it special is his choice of sleepwear.

“is that my shirt?”

Ohno blushes. He had completely forgotten that he used one of Sho’s shirt as pajamas.

“I didn’t have anything clean, so I used yours.”

Sho laughed at Ohno’s pathetic excuse.

“Stop laughing! I missed you! There? You happy?”

Ohno was a red as a firetruck but Sho didn’t stop laughing.

“I’m happy.”

In the midst of it all, Sho grabbed Ohno’s chin, tilting it upwards. He presses a kiss on Ohno’s lips, which the latter did not expect. It was an innocent kiss, but for Ohno, this is much better.

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Title: Another day
Author: nin_nin15
Length: drabble
Pairings: N/A, nino-centric
Rating: g
Genre: angst
Notes: Inspired by Nino’s solo “Mata Kyou to Onaji Asu ga Kuru”. Feel free to think of anyone. :3


Nino laid on the bed they used to share. He reached out his hand, hoping he will feel something, but there was none. The other side was empty. It was cold and lonely. Nino remembered why he hated the cold.

Nino smiled at the sleeping figure beside him. He was warm, a comforting kind of warm. The type you want to cuddle all day with. He was addicted to this warmth.

He stared at the ceiling they used to look at when they talked about everything. The glow in the stars were fading.

“Nino! Let’s put glow in the dark stars!” he smiled as he pointed at their ceiling.
“That’s childish.”
He laughed at the thought of glow in the dark stars on their ceiling, but still he found himself buy the stars with him on the next day.

He clutched on his phone, biting back the tears. He wanted to hear his voice so bad. He missed the sweet little nothings he whispered into his ear before they slept.

“I love you.”
It was sudden, like a spark through Nino’s body. It gave him life, and he wished he found it earlier. But now that it’s here, he won’t let go.

All the warm memories flashed through his mind. The memories that were vibrant was slowly turning into a painful gray. He didn’t want to forget anything.

It was the first time he beat Nino in a game. His smile was bright, like the first sunshine of spring. It blinded Nino, but it’s fine, at least his face will be the last one he sees.

But he needed to forget. He needed it to move on, to live even if he was dying inside little by little, the loneliness eating him slowly.

“I guess this is goodbye.”
There was nothing else, not a kiss nor a hug. They parted so simply. They walked different paths home, but for Nino there was no home to go back to.

The stars have completely faded and the world completely turned gray. His heart shattered into a million tiny pieces.

He tried fighting back the tears, clutching his phone until his fingertips turned white, biting his lips until it bled, but everything was useless.

A silent sob echoed through the cold empty room.


Home

Oct. 21st, 2016 07:20 pm
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Title: Home
Author: nin_nin15
Length: Drabble
Pairings: Matsumiya
Rating: G
Genre: Angst, friendship, fluff
Summary: When Nino got lost on the way home
Notes: Hey, at least I tried. :3


Nino watched as the man he loves kiss another person. What hurts more is the fact that this other person was dear to him. He was broken, shook, tears were brimming his eyes, dangerously close to falling.
“Nino! What are you doing? Is the door locked or something?”
Aiba’s voice snapped him out of his stupor, but his cheery voice was not helping at all. It made Nino hurt a bit more.
“I have to go somewhere.”
Nino left in a rush. He was sure Aiba saw his tears.


e walked without any destination in mind. He was speechless, but a million of words wanted to escape. He wanted to scream, to shout, to yell, to be over with everything, but he was too defeated to do anything,

He walked a bit more, finding himself staring at he sunset by a riverbank he knew to well. He had spent a lot of time there, just thinking, letting his thoughts let loose. The soft afternoon breeze ruffled his hair, made him shiver a bit, but he didn’t care. It helped dry his tears anyway.

He didn’t know how to go back to them, especially when it was his best friend that stole the love of his life. He couldn’t bring himself to hate them, he just hates himself, for being such a coward and losing a once in a lifetime chance. He stepped towards the river, the cold water caressing his ankles. He took another step into the river. Nino stopped until the water was slightly above his waist. He could end it here and leave everything behind.

“Nino, it’s time to go home.”

Nino turned his head to where the voice was coming from. He saw Jun standing there with a gentle smile on his face. Nino felt hot tears roll down his cheeks. It made him smile a little bit. He noticed where he was standing. He laughed at himself for even thinking of ending it here.

He walked towards Jun as more tears fell down.

“It’s going to be okay.”

Jun accepted Nino wholeheartedly into his arms, not caring if his clothes were going to get wet. Nino is more important than clothes, more important than anything.


EXTRA:

“How did you know?”

Nino asked as he snuggled more into Jun’s coat.

“Aiba-san called me, he said he was worried about you.”

Jun’s voice was calm, it had the same effect on Nino.

“I’m loved, aren’t I?”

Nino let out a little laugh.

“Okaeri.”

Jun smiled as he took Nino’s hand and intertwined it with his.

“Tadaima.”

Nino tightened his hold on Jun’s hand. He was not going to let of this hand.
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Title: Awkward Touches and Weird Confessions
Author: nin_nin15
Length: Drabble
Pairings: Sakuraiba
Rating: G
Genre:Crack
Summary: Sho's hands lead him to somewhere.


As much as Sho tries to avoid it, he has wandering hands. Sometimes it lands on inanimate objects, but most of the time it lands on his most treasured human in the world.
              “You’re doing it again, Sho-chan.” Aiba whispers casually in Sho’s ear.
He blushes and removes his already comfortable but awkwardly placed hand on Aiba’s hand.
                “I can’t help it; they just wander on their own.”
                “Don’t make excuses Sho-chan, you really like my hands, don’t you?”
Aiba giggles like a girl.
                “It’s not just your hands, I really like you and your everything.”
Sho holds Aiba’s hands and grips it as a sign of affirmation. Aiba feels his heart rate increase a little bit. It amazes Aiba how Sho could be so composed even after all that. He continues to speak.
                “Maybe that’s why they go to you! Because I really like you!”
Aiba thanks all the gods that they were the only people in the room or else it would have been the most embarrassing situation Aiba has ever been in. And that’s saying a lot. Aiba tried to act cool. He composed his thoughts to make it seem like he was treating everything as a joke.
                “I get it Sho-chan, you like me.”
He sounded a bit apprehensive, but he couldn’t hide the blush emerging from his cheeks. As soon as Sho noticed Aiba’s blushing face, Sho popped the question, his signature smirk gracing his face.
                “Aiba-kun, do you like me?”
                “I like you, Sho-chan, but as a friend, I guess.”
                “I guess?”
Sho’s smirk grows bigger, and Aiba couldn’t say anything, he decided that the best things he could do at that time was nod.
                “So there’s a chance?”
                “A chance?”
                “That you might like me?”
Once again, Aiba nods. Sho’s smirk turns into a full on smile.    
                “I’ll make you like me Aiba! Mark my words!”
Sho runs out of the door, leaving a dumbstruck Aiba behind.

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